Inconceivable Fear

I have treated you way more than kins

Have been submissive to your wishes

Have heeded to your cries

Have given you almost my everything --

My love, my self-respect.

I have forgiven you

Once, twice, thrice

A hundred times.

Never denies your disgraceful

apologies

Given you  worth more than a diamonds

But still

You mashed my pride

You slaved me to death

Crashed down what is left of me

Showed to me what grave is like

While I am still breathing.

You have buried me alive --

Countless times already.

Now, I want to let go of you

And have some self-pity of myself.

I want to erase you entirely in my life 

Even for once, even for this time only

Even for this day

But I can't.

I can't dare not to talk.

I can't pretend and shout, "I don't care!"

Even though you caused me blood of tears,

I still can't ignore you 

'Coz I love you so much

More than the worth of my life.

Note: This is an original poem by Red Phantom.